Ecorchée vive

Tues moi, vite fait bien fait
Allonge moi la et laisse moi crever
Regarde moi mourir a petit feu
Alors que je n’essaye meme pas de respirer
Hier j’etais si bien
Aujourd’hui il ne me reste rien
Que la peur, la fureur
De mon coeur qui se meurt
Devoré par la rage
Comme enfermé dans une cage
Et qui s’en va au large
Dans un ocean de souffrance
Et d’agonie
Dans lequel je me noie
Incapable de retourner vers toi
Faire demi-tour
Et tuer cet amour
Avant d’etre ecorchée vive
Et de rejoindre l’autre rive

(c) Aurore Ciholas

Samedi 04-08-2012

In my dreams

In my dreams I saw you
You were so close to me
We were so happy
But now it’s all gone
And I stay still
Down on my knees
I was deceived
By my own illusions
My wildest dreams
Drowning in delusion
So far away
From it all
And all is turning black
I’m trapped in the dark
Will it ever come back
No, no one knows
No one can tell
For dreams can come true
But require to go through
So much pain
All is lie
All can die
At once
And vanish
Slip between fingers
Like the sand
Of the hottest desert
And the forgotten lands
Of despair and death
Of the death of faith
And down on my knees I am
And all is turning black
I’m trapped in the dark
Will it ever come back
Will it ever be true
Will I ever go through…

(c) Aurore Ciholas

Monday 22h20

Love scream

No matter how loud I scream it
You barely ever hear me
No matter how much times I say it
You never listen to me
You carry on and on
With your own ideas
You don’t care and you move on
And you leave me bleed
All alone in the dark
All alone in the night
I can’t even be with you
Even though I scream it
you play deaf
You play blind
You don’t mind
You don’t care and you swear
You love me
But I’m found in agony
Only your words have killed me
Nothing else…
No other place
To go now
I am left
And I fade
With the dying day…

(c) Aurore Ciholas

Friday 27 april 2012

Cold sun

The sun’s shining today
But I feel so cold inside
And I can’t seem to get away
From this eerie feeling of mine
Taking me thouroughly
Inside and out
As if life was quitting me
As strong as a shout
Running away
I feel the cold of this day
In bright daylight
This trembling whisper
Nothing’s left
For another
For it is only
Dying inside
Burning me whole
And firing a hole
Inside my heart
As is my soul
At that time
Fueled with
Broken dreams
My vision turns black
I feel ostracized
Away from you
Away from it all
Dying alone
Inside myself
All alone
Into this field

(c) Aurore Ciholas

Tuesday 24-04-2012
And Friday 27 April 2012

So cold

So cold
I feel like dying
I stopped breathing
Some time ago
I feel like crying
Though no sound
Is coming out
From the inside
Only silent cries
From the heart and soul

(c) Aurore Ciholas

Sunday 17h06

Closed gate

What you have done to me
Has left me angry
For the rest of my days
Feel my pain
Flowing through your veins
Your damned life will end soon
Don’t you worry
I’ll be your caretaker
I know you don’t recognize me
’cause you’re bleeding
And your screaming
Far away from me
In your loneliness
All alone and so far
But I can still feel
I can still touch you
I can kill you and you know it
You know how it works
You damn know how it works
Cause you’ve been
Doing the wrong things to me
Now it’s time to feel my rage
Time of dying
To feel this harsh pain
Flowing through your veins
There is no means
To save your damned soul
Cause the karma returns
The karma returns
And you can’t escape
Through a closed gate
You walked away
A long time ago
And you can never go back
Oh yeah, never get back near me
You don’t belong here anymore
So just stay here or run away
Before your blood
Runs out all of your veins
And your soul escapes
And throws itself
Against the closed gate

(c) Aurore Ciholas

saturday 19h09